September 27, 2013
Dating with Psoriasis…
I’ve recently fallen in love and yes, he knows and accepts my Psoriasis! I remember feeling like I’d never date a man who would accept my Psoriasis. Actually, I used to do everything to hide or get rid of it as quickly as possible because if they saw or felt it they would ask what it was and if they knew what it was they would dump me! These were the thoughts in my head! I would make a few triPs to the tanning salon or I would wear long sleeve shirts, anything and everything! But the truth is you can’t really hide it once you start falling in love can you? First of all, you don’t want to start off the relationship lying which is what I did when I would pretend it didn’t exist! Second of all, you can’t live your life pulling away every time he goes to rub your arm or massage your leg.
My story is a bit unique because I spent almost a year eating a plant based diet, acidic free for the most part, healed my Psoriasis 95%, then met Mike, started to drink/socialize more, eat more desserts after romantic dinners, etc…etc… As you can imagine I started on a downward, acidic spiral real fast! At first I didn’t care so much because my Psoriasis was in remission and I felt invincible! Then we went on vacation to Ireland and temporarily meat made its way back into my world! Lets just say it all caught up with me and my Psoriasis clear elbows are no longer clear:(
That was a blow!
The experience I had walking around proud to expose my elbows…man it felt AMAZING! Like nothing else in the world!
As if I had been freed from my own Psoriasis prison! And now…well..I’m uPset and disappointed.
So now what? Well…I know what I need to do and I’m slowly starting to get back to it….slowly. One healthy meal at a time. It’s so hard!!! Man is it hard! I want to go to dinner and have a few glasses of wine! I want to share dessert! I want to be able to grab pizza if I’m in a rush and have no time to eat dinner! Being single and eating as constricted as you want is so much easier! I think the key is finding a happy medium somewhere. I’m starting to eat a little more alkaline again, including veggies into every meal, juicing everyday and cutting my alcohol intake down to 1 or 2 days a week. I will monitor my Psoriasis and see how that goes!
It was a bit embarrassing too because the reason I realized it was back was because Mike was rubbing my arms while watching tv one night and he said “what’s that on your elbows, is that Psoriasis?” I had no choice but to own it, look at it with him and say YES, yes it is. Ugh! I know there could be worst moments for sure, but that one was crappy for me! He knew I had Psoriasis because I told him all about my health journey when we met, but now he’s literally feeling it on my skin. That’s a different story. It just makes me feel so ugly and deep down I don’t want him to ever feel it makes me ugly and I think that’s my fear. But It’s real, he caught me, I can’t hide it now nor do I want to though, not from him. As ashamed as I feel I don’t want to hide anything from him. I explained how off my health path I’ve been and he takes most of the credit:) I know it’s all my own doing, but its sweet of him to take the blame. Luckily he wants to eat more healthy and is loving my positive influence. I got real lucky with this one. He’s not the only reason I fell off the wagon, but I’ll save that story for next month!